Subliminal.

When Mephistopheles is just beneath

And he's reaching up to grab me

This is one for the good days

And I have it all here

In red blue green

Red.Blue.Green

You are my centre when I spin away

Out of control on videotape

Little things that are left to say;

And when I told her

I didn't love her anymore, she cried

And when I told her

Her kisses were not like before, she cried

And when I told her

Another girl had caught my eye, she cried

And then I kissed her

With a kiss that could only mean goodbye

If you want me.

Are you really here

or am I dreaming

I can't tell dreams from truth

for it's been so long

since I have seen you

I can hardly remember

your face anymore

When I get really lonely

and the distance causes our silence

I think of you smiling

with pride in your eyes

a lover that sighs

if you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure

that you'd believe me

when others say I lie

I wonder if you could

ever despise me

when you know I really try

to be a better one

to satisfy you

for your everything to me

and I'll do

what you ask me

if you'll let me be

free

Beautiful.

Your so.

I have these

Strange attachment bonds with this beautiful photos.

The new.

I can't do.

But the old, is all I know.

I enjoy paychecks.

Because I get to buy things that make me happy.

Who said money couldn't buy happiness.

GMDHC & TB as DP.

The suspense is killing me.

Interesting, yet moving quote.

"The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating...

...and you finish off as an orgasm." - George Carlin

I need sleep.

In the chamber of your consolidated dreams, is were you sleep.
Tainted thoughts underlying different meanings, oh I can see.

But I cant seem to sleep.
No I cant seem to sleep.

I need you here with me.
These gentle cold breezes are breaking into my skin.
Running through my body like a herd of horses, or so it seems.

But I cant seem to sleep.
No I cant seem to sleep.


Your are the invader in my temple of dreams.
Your slowly taking everything away from me.

Oooo Oooo Oooo Oooo
Oooo Oooo Oooo Oooo

But I cant seem to sleep.
No I cant seem to sleep.

In your fleet.

I want to drive to a beach house and bury my thoughts in the sand.
Your best friend said to let him, so that certain things can fall apart.
Now I'm going to move in sync with the chorus so that I can try to be in your fleet.
Honey just look into my eyes & just notice that we will always be lovers.

Oooo Oooo Oooo
Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh

We will fall out of each others pockets.
We will fall out of each others pockets.

Oooo Oooo Oooo
Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh

Your mother will be outside, thinking we aren't going to make it anyway.
So that's when I'll let you know then, Im going to drive to a beach house and bury my thoughts.
Your best friend said to let him, so that certain things can fall apart.
Now I'm going to move in sync with the chorus so that I can try to be in your fleet.
Honey just look into my eyes & just notice that we will always be lovers.

Oooo Oooo Oooo
Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh

Always be lovers, Lovers,
Always be lovers.

Oooo Oooo Oooo
Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh...

Oh Gogo.

All I want to do is see and hang out with your crew.

Iwant.

something like this.

The gift from Capitalism.

it comes with a price.

The Beautiful Things.

The Hour Glass Poem.

I'm excited to go & its somewhere only we know.

It's time to embrace the change, I can't wait to go.

From arm to arm, well take each other there.

From time to time we will suffer with dis-pear.

But it wont hold us back now, were drifting closer.

& the dream is nearly fact now.

The cracks of fiction are seeping through reality.

Now its time to come or go.

Are you In? or are you out?

We won't wait so come and shout.

We'll Look behind us, we'll scream & say.

Goodbye & farewell, maybe we will see each-other again someday.

But for now, this climax is coming.

Time to turn a new page.

Finally a chapter is nearly ending & its time for a new dawn or day of age.

I don't know what is coming my way.

I don't know whats coming your way.

But let's make this worth it & try anyways.

I can't quite explain this level of excitement in my brain.

The butterflies are leaving my stomach & coursing through my veins.

I know I will miss a few.

& I know now & then I'll think of you.

But all I can say, is "thank you for everything by the way."

We are leaving for good.

Time is moving with or without you.

Either you see us now, or we will just fade away.

But keep the memories, we'll love you always.

The Grey Areas.

I saw something sitting on your bed.

Back To Square One.

I hate it. I really do & I don't know what to do.

Maybe it's best if I should really just go.

Maybe it will be better. Maybe I'll be happier. Maybe something good will happen.

Maybe...

But I feel fine.

In The Lab, In a Heartbeat.

I really need to get myself one of these helmets. This has always been one of my Halloween ideas. I'd really want to dress up as Guy Manuel or Thomas B. one day & know what it feels like to be one of the koolest kats ever known to man.

Im not quite sure who photographed this image, but; all i know is that it's essentially one of my favorites & I had to post it up.



The other day I went to this mexican resturant with my co-worker & I had this tasty sauce called "El fruta del Diablo" which was actually really good. I got hooked to it as soon as I tasted it! You readers seriously have to experience the flavor rush of these bad boys.
(Thats if you like hot and spicy sauces.)

Finally, Im going to buy my new Instax Mini 7S Instant Camera, which is going to be pretty badass. Im really looking forward to it. Im going to photograph everything!

Ultimately, I'm diggin where things are going right now.

Halloween.

Is what I'm really looking forward too.

These are two idea's I have in mind for what I want to be. This ones cool and easy to make.

I really like the face paint, I might end up doing this & also dressing up as one of the undead for Dia De los Muertos.

I'll make up my mind eventually, but its always good to think ahead of time I guess.

Cognitive Thinking.

I look at my mind from within and feel both trapped and puzzled about the strangeness of my own existence. My thoughts swirl round and round constantly probing the strangeness of self-hood --why do I exist? Why am I me and not someone else? At these times, feelings of sweaty panic develop, as if I am having a phobia about my own thoughts. At other times, I don't feel "grounded". I look at this body and can't understand why I am within it. I hear myself having conversations and wonder where the voice is coming from. I imagine myself seeing life as if it were played like a film in a cinema. But in that case, Where am I? Who is watching the film? What is the cinema? The worst part is that this seems as if it's the truth, and the period of my life in which I did not feel like this were delusions.

"We Are Unusual & Tragic & Alive."

9.19.10 / 3:23

He Tells Himself:

That everything is okay.
That one day everything will become better.
That one day someone will appreciate him.
That sometimes it's okay to open up.
That it's a good idea not to love someone.
That being independent is whats best for him.
That focusing on his own priorities will get him to where he wants to be faster.
That dreaming always makes him feel better.
That telling people what they want to hear is always right for them.
That he should just forget about the world & everyone on it.
That he shouldn't waste his time putting effort into someone that wont respond back.
That he will see her again, although she doesn't walk on the face of this earth.
That other people have it worser then he does.

Yes.

Timid Dreaming.

Shocked, So Shocked. Im Happy, but shocked.

My dreams are on A train to train wreck town.

She & Him.

I just found this photo, & I thought it was post worthy. Thats it.

P.s: I have A friend named sophia, who would go shit crazy for this.

9.8.10

I recently decided to keep track of my dreams by writing within this journal that I found in my room, it was completely empty & I found no writing within the pages. What motivated me to do so was a current dream that I had, It was insightful, peculiar & magnificent. What I expect to learn & obtain from this Journal of mine is how to learn from and understand my dreams. I have a psychology book along with this dream book to understand & interpret dreams. The recent dream that I had was very similar to this photo I have posted among these texts. In my dream people were swimming in the sky, in sequence and all aligned in several rows. Strangely enough, It seemed as if I was underwater because the atmosphere these people were swimming on made splashes and ripples. But what I did not understand was that the surface that I was standing on. It had tall grass, variety of flowers peaking into light, & tall trees with humongous branches. I looked at the floor, I noticed something buried with what seemed to be a cork sprouting out. I dug the item out & found out that it was a bottle buried underneath the ground. There was a note in the bottle. I removed the cork from the bottle which was dirty with fresh soil, & opened the note. It stated: "Welcome, don't be alarmed, the people above you are the recently & have been deceased happily swimming & returning to the life line". After that I looked at the sky once again but before I knew it, my alarm went off and awoke me.

Becoming's.

Too many courses.

Studious hours are scarce.

Time crunch, time crunch, time crunch.

Working hours have enhanced.

Social life is at a minimal.

No time, getting distant, becoming independent.

Less sleeping hours.

moderate moods & chemical imbalances.

Body is fatiguing.

Mind is solely overworked.

Famished appetite.

Colors.

I really like it when I wake up in the morning, because the first thing I see is something similar to this in the ceiling. What a good way to start off a day, by staring at something beautiful.

So Tired.

Emotionally, Mentally, & Physically.

Sometimes it feels like the going just gets to rough.

& things go wrong no matter what I do.

Now & then it seems like life is just too much.

Sometimes I feel like saying "lord I just dont care".

Sb Multi-Instrumentalist.

I just simply cant get enough. I always, always, always feel better after listening to your productions.

What Gives?

Just more stufff that I really want of my own.

Untitled.

I really like the director to this music video.
I want to buy some sort of editing program, so that I can edit the videos that I've recorded.
It would be a good way to kill some time if thier wasn't anything to do.

I Really Don't.

She knows exactly what I mean.

I Still Enjoy Them.

very much so.

I want.

Something similar to this photo.

& I also want this, I would like to keep this with me at all times since I always carry my sketch book everywhere.

Love Cuts Deep.

Sid & Nancy are something else.
Zooey & Joseph are too.




This video gets to me all the time.

Space-heads & Helmets.

I just cant get enough of this photo. I just wanted to share it with you all.

It puts me in various moods, but its usually in-between happy & melancholy.

23.

Today I bought this Rugged Canvas Back Pack for a good retail price. I am just so over joyed. This is exactly the bag I've been seeking for to use for school to store my books & other material.

I also need to go to Micheal's to buy more acrylic paint, I still have a couple unfinished canvas's to complete for marleen.

Finally, I am starting my fall courses in a week & a half. I'm attempting to take 5 classes, but I've only been officially registered for 4. So for my fifth class, I will be doing a walk in & hopefully achieve an add-on.

P.s; I fucking love ikea.