Chronic Disatisfaction

So there it was, the solution to my problem.

The vexation that I couldn't resist this whole entire time.

The constant plunges and self destructive conflictions.

But it is clear to me now, more than ever.

La Vida es hermosa

Quiero hacer dulce amor con usted mujer.

ya me quiero ir de aqui

Donde puedo.

cuando quiero.

lugares solo para siempre es donde yo quiero estar.

Untitled II

She's not a girl who misses much
Do do do do do do, oh yeah
She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand
Like a lizard on a window pane

I'd be content

If I was born a couple decades ago.

But rest assured that I can always day dream.



Besides I have my eyes set on you. Man I need to save up for a sweet ride.

Modern Infatuations;

Indeed.

I less then three of you.

so so so much...

Je me suis réveillé à ce.

The film still remains as one of my favorites.

My Enduendo.

Apparently I am useless, It seems to me that I am not cut out for my job.

Visual merchandising and retail in general is such a drag.

I am over worked in my environment, never complimented on my achievements.

Instead I am walked all over on and lectured on my flaws.

But if thats the case...

Why is it that I am the only associate who runs segments for management at times,

Helps out in visual merchandising, accommodate customers as a sales associate & ring as a cashier?

But still I am worthless.

I already want out from here & there.

My time is always occupied by a job that I no longer having aspirations or desires to work upon.

Im focusing way to much time on my education, but yet I always doubt my major.

I never have time for myself or for my friends.

But I will continue to keep myself bound to a positive perspective.

I will try harder to become a better person in my working environment, to my family, my friends, and to myself.

Im way over my head right now.

I need time to collect myself, I need to remember too stay true to myself.

I feel programed. As if I serve no purpose.

I feel so much conflicting inside, I can't take any of this anymore.

My fellow sales associate you are all wonderful people.

But I know that you all feel the same as I do.

But I think its time for me to break away from this.

This particular industry disgusts me.

The wrong people are accredited for something they didn't do.

But a job is a job, but hopefully I get some call backs soon.

I still have faith.

Man, my life has been quite a trip, so much has happened, its hard to take in at times.

But as of today, I will start all over again.

I treasure everything that has happened in the past.

But I do believe its finally time for change.

I believe Sexuality

is a beautiful, wonderful, experimental, meaningful, malevolent, & unexplainable .